always.

Monday, July 30, 2007

Its a tiring weekend.
see, i dun ven have the time to blog lah.
now, i am at the com lab.
friday, i erached home damn super late and hungry.
urghh...
i am so stressed up.
tomorrow got science test.
and french test.
i havent even studied for my science yet.
sure fail one.
then the RI boys will laugh their heads off.
science test...i sun think i am very well prepared too.
i am so dead.
urghh...
anyone can help me?

Friday, July 27, 2007

TODAY WE HAD SEL LESSON!
it was damn freaking fun!
Ashley, Yan Tian, Yuan Jing, Hanis, Levina, me and the leading character Natalie lugh lyk mad.
damn funny.
sit with they all really vey fun!
laugh and laugh and laugh...
unlyk if i sit with someone.
i wonder wat would happen...
sure die one.
well, today's SEL topic is "love and crushes".
eveyone have the kind of weird look on their face.
damn funny.
so ms wee started teachin us wats the difference btw, "love", "crushes" and "infatuations".
lol.
ashley and natalie tried to sabo me. keep saying my name.
make me so paiseh.
then....
sumone sort of blushed.
haha.
then i keep looking at her.
shant sabo her.
erm then suddenly ashley shouted "mrs lee! "
when natalie was talking summore.
we laugh lyk mad.
crazy.
then yan tian, natalie, ashley , yuanjing and me keep passing the bottle of "Pringles" around.
haha.
so fun!
then we had grp discussion.
erm we discussed abt sth regarding the hair.
and stalkers.
asley super humourous and cute.
lol.
then after that got maths. damn boring as usual.
we had a quiz.
i didnt do exactly well coz i was damn careless.
hmm...now kellie sitting nxt to me.
she also very cute.
today is both a nice and sad day.
i hate this.
nxt week got lots of test.
so i shant think too much! jolene, jiayou!
i love ashley, natalie, yuanjing, yantian, hanis, levina!
thanks for making me laugh and laugh!
haha.

i am now in the computer lab.
damn pissed off.
sad, angry and stuff.
wth u all have to do this to me??????
ok lor.
i am invisible.
happy?
school life sucks.
the only thing i love are my really good frens, my cca etc.
k lor.
u all can say its my fault if u want.
still threaten me want configure my photo.
then y tell me stuff abt urself and show off?
incorigible.
i hate this.

i am in the com lab now.
with varsha and natalie.
natalie is talking to her dar dar wei an...
lol.
JOGGING IS CANCELLED TODAY!
so happy.
oh the previous post, i edited cz sumone didnt want to have their names up there.
lol.
natalie is sooooo fortunate.
her dar dar so sweet.
and varsha is crazy over tennis.
gahh...nxt week got a lot of tests coming up.
i am so stressed!
science is so hard. especially elements compounds and mixtures.
summore today i going to stay in school till 8 plus 9 liddat.
for the MTP.
gtg.
its SEL NOW.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

OH MY GOSH!
xxxx AND yyyy HAVE BOYFRIENDS!
I CANT BELIEVE THIS LAH...
xxxx'S BF IS FROM CATHOLIC HIGH. THE NAME IS I DUNNO WAT. BUT START WITH "JED".
yyyy'S BF FRM RAFFLES. BASKETBALL SUMMORE. HA. HE CALLED JACK.
AIYO, I CANT BELIEVE THIS LAH.
THEY GOING ON DATES!
HAHA.
and now they are showing off to me):
so bad.
they are tempting me.
kk...
WELL, xxxx AND yyyy FRM MY SCHOOL HAVE BOYFRIENDS!
OMG.
omg.
wish them happiness for life!

yesterday was NAPFA 2.4 km.
i ran for my life.
perhaps i didnt push enough.
i was not very satisfied wif my results.
dun want to say my results.
if anyone wants to know, ask me!
lol.
Badriyah, Ashley, Yan Tian, Levina, Natalie, Candia, Si Jia etc. all run damn super fast lah.
so sad got ppl fail. but nvm, jiayou and all the best for your retest(:
lyk watms poon say, must push urself!
the sky is the limit!
for the 5 items for NAPFA, its nxt week.
i am damn scared.
hope i do well!
today got training but i am skipping it cz i got french class.
urghhh...i feel lyk dropping french.
yesterday sufen smsed me.
i miss her.
haha.
she ask me if i want to go back to daqiao today.
too bad i can't.
sorry sufen!

today ashley, yan tian and yuan jing had their kou tou bao gao.
it was damn funny.
haha esp ashley's.
LOL.
i love my seat.
its damn fun wif natalie, ashley, yuan jing, yan tian, hanis and levina(:
haha. nxt term i want liddat again.

JUZ NOW I DAMN PISSED OFF BY THIS STUPID GIRL.
WTH.
WE WERE TALKING ABT THE 50 LAPS CEDAR THINGY.
I WAS HELPING NATALIE WRITE DOWN THE POSITIONS.
THEN THAT GIRL...
SHE DUN WANT RUN THE LAST LAP.
STILL THREATEN TO TELL THE TEACHER AND CRY.
AIYO, PLS LAH, SEC 1 ALR.
SO CHILDISH.
I HATE THIS KIND OF PPL.
LAME DUCK LAH SHE.
SHE IS A LOSER. (according to sumone). haha
shant sabotage that person!

i am very tired. really very tired...
erm and i wish candice all the best in her tests!
and roysmond too(:
dun mug too much!

btw, i am now at the com. lab wif yuan jing, varsha and natalie(:
and we see wendelyn.
yuan jing idolise her.
kk. i gtg. byeeee!

AND I HATE THAT GIRL.
SHE IS SO LAME AND CHILDISH.
WAT RIGHTS DES SHE HAVE TO LET OTHERS CHANGE THEIR TIMESLOT BECOZ OF HER?

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

i am so tired.
nth much to blog.
THANKS XINYUN!
I LOVE YOU!
FRENS 4EVA(:

Monday, July 23, 2007

I AM REALLY DAMN STRESSED UP. CAN ANYONE HELP?

I am really very very very tired...
my whole body aches.
training was fun but tiring(:
recently, i am really very tired.
overcame by fatigue.
i dunno why.
can anyone tell me?
i am lack of sleep.
one day only 5 to 6 hours.
and summore i stay in school frm 7 to 6 plus! (on training days)
Felicia, Xue Piao and Catherine told me that i wont be able to take it frm the start.
i didnt listen to them.
i sort of regret it now...
sigh...
my its my dream. i musnt give up!
jiayou jolene!
dun give up!
perhaps this is the only comfort i can give myself!
hmm...i really need sumone to depend on now...
lol.
tmr got french. damn scared. must face the super smart RI boys.
oh i am going crazy!
have no idea wat kind of life i am leading now lah...
sian.
this fast paced life isn't my cup of tea.
sigh...

Saturday, July 21, 2007

hello i am here to blog coz marie told me to blog(:
lol.
yesterday was racial harmony day. many ppl came to sch in ethnice costumes which i tot was fun! haha. i nv wear ethnic coztume this yr. cz i dun feel lyk. the reason is simple. wow! al my seniors so pretty one lah. high heeled shoes and stuff! haha....end of day got assembly. the teachers put in lots of efforts. esp the humanities teachers. however, fatigue overcame me. i nearly fell asleep! y am i so lethargic nowadays huh?

hmm..today is a tiring day.
early in the morning got piano lesson. almost fell asleep.
then afternoon got tuition.
but i sort of enjoyed the tuition coz we wrote a composition.
there were several titles for us to choose.
then i chose "THE DANCER". coz i reminds me of my good friend. i shall not mention the name. i wrote a really heart warming story. i enjoyed the whole process. my friend, i shall show u wat i wrote on monday!

sigh...recently i oso dunno why. i seem to be very tired everyday. i feel lyk sleeping all the time. i look so dead. wats wrong with me? can anyone tell me?
monday is coming. i will be going back to school.
so scary. so many tests are coming. French, Science, Maths, Chinese, English TA and stuff.
deadlines are approaching!
HELP!
i cant breathe!
i dun myself after going secondary. its lyk i changed so much. 180 degrees turn. nope wrong, is 360 degrees turn! >.<
jus dunno wats wrong...can anyone tell me?

Friday, July 20, 2007

its getting late(:
so this shall be a very short post.
i simply love my new phone!
erm and today, i went home with xinyun. then we met candice at amk hub! wah, she damn pretty. chiobu. xin yun and her are chiobus! candice grow quite tall lah. ha, but i oso got grow.
this few days, i dunno why i so tired.
tons and tons of hwk.
tons and tons of test.
urghh...this is driving me crazy.
i want to go back to primary sch...
HELP!

Thursday, July 19, 2007

I forgot to mention one thing, today i met Bryan on my way home wif Gloria! Bryan Ong. I saw him on 135. damn cool lah. haha. i called him.
"Bryan! Hello! Rmb me?"
"Erm yah. "
"I am Jolene."
"Haha. Yah i noe. "
Then we went on talking abt sch life and stuff lah.
He is in Maris Stella. nv really change a lot lah. his face.
he say my looks change quite a bit.
lol.
then at last, he said "I got to alight alr. Bye! See u!"
then i said "ok! bye bye! "
hmm...its gd to see old frens once in a while.
last time me, him, Hong Kiat and Priscilla were very good frens.
ha, i think pri 5 dat time.
we same tuition. then everytime the four of us, 2 boys 2 girls will go for lunch together.
haha. i rmb Bryan is left handed.
lol.
he is a nice guy lah. cute.
Now, i go Cedar, Hong Kiat go SJI, Priscilla go St Nicholas, Bryan go Maris Stella.
haha.
btw, me and hong kiat everytime make fun of Bryan and Priscilla. They really suit each other lah.
haha.
well, hope to see them again! Must catch up wif them someday!

Today got english oral and history test. i will probably flunk both.
i slept during the history test! i mean after finishing the paper. Natalie tried to wake me up. but it was an unsuccessful attempt. until finally the last time, i woke up. haha...
i was damn tired cz i reached home very late yesterday. i reached home at 8.20 liddat.
yesterday marked the end of the 48th National Inter School Track and Field Championships.
It was held at Chua Chu Kang Stadium, which is quite far away frm my house.
On the bus was damn fun. i fiddled with my new handphone. Jue Ying, Jing Yi, Jie Wei, Zhi Xuan, Yan Qing and I sat quite near. i opened my bottle of Pringles (or how u spell it) and within half and hour, whole thing gone. LOL.
The whole Cedar Athletic Team was down to support. including the PCs, PSLs, teachers, Mrs OuYang, Mdm Haslinda and even some parents.
Haha, yesterday the whole stadium was packed with people from different schools. Hwa Chong Instituition, Raffles Instituition, ACS(I), Catholic High, Victoria School, St Joseph Instituition, Singapore Sports School, St Nicholas, Cresent Girls, NanYang Girls, RGS and many more.
*I saw a lot of cute and hot guys!* LOL.
i think Hwa Chong did quite a good job.
Singapore Sports School even better lor. its lyk duh. they win practically everything.
ha, but Cedar oso VERY GOOD!
all of the athletes really put in their best. fighting tenaciously on the track. i really admire them for their spirit of sportsmanship.
Btw, Cedar got 2nd for both B and C division! a round of applause!
LOL.
All the PCs and PSLs were shouting really loud. cheering for our fellow sprinters on the track.
its really cool lah.
lastly before the whole event ended, we went for our victory lap, which is 400m around the track.
no matter who is the winner, i think that they are winners in their own heart. as they have tried their best to overcome difficulties. they have put in their heart and soul in running for their best timing.
to me, that's shld be and athlete's mindset.
This quote has always been in my heart. guiding me all the way. overcoming difficulties and stuff.
"If we all did the things that we are capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves."
Isn't it meaningful?
Well, I am really proud of my school. proud of being a Cedarian.
Cedar Girls' Secondary, i love u 4eva!
Cedar Athletic Team, rock on(:

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

its recess again. i am at the computer lab wif yuan jing, natalie, varsha, gloria, zhen yi. damn sian leh. ha, i am so happy today. coz i juz got my new handphone! yippee! haha...
i changed my no. too! its 92XXXXXX now! take note(:
today is the finals for nationals track and field. we are gonig to chua chu kang stadium! its so far right?
well, now varsha is looking at wat i am typing!
after recess is dnt. sigh...then after that is TOP! then sayonara. we going to the stadium!
hmm...seriously i think our class is not united.
after so many incidents. it looks lyk our class has grown more and more cliqueish. sigh...i am really sad. why can't we be more united?
1A, 加油! Put all the unhappiness aside. k?
love u all forever!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

i am now at the computer lab.
wif varsha and gloria.
its recess now.
damn sian. jogging juz ended.
now, this shall be a short post.
ytd i had a really fun day.
first, i got my CAT tee.
Cedar Athletic Team.
omg its damn cool lah.
being in track and field has always been my dream.
i am pursuing now.
i cant believe. my dream has come true!
LOL.
i must do my best. nt do things half hearted. coz i love my cca.
then we went to Assisi wif Candia, Catherine, Sing Yi and Xue Piao.
had lots and lots of fun.
hmm...today i go home then write more abt there.
i suddenly realised that my blog is really impt to me!
it accompanies me...no matter rain or shine.
tmr is nationals final.
i am nervous and excited at the same time.
we will go to chua chu kang tmr.
its kinda cool, isnt it?
gtg. Badi waiting for me.
she wants me to go get CAT tee wif her.
bye bye!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

this post would be a very short one. its dedicated to everyone who has helped me in one way or another.
for example: Si Jia, Varsha, Marie, Badriyah, Sarah, Samara, Boon Hui, Charmaine, Nicholas, Yoong Kwei, Yu Hui, Xiang Ying and many more(:
recently, my life has been rather dark. exam grades, projects and stuff.
life is really dull.
thanks to all those who tried to cheer me up!
adding colours to my black and white life.
i really appreciate that.
this year 2007 may be the worst year i ever had in my life.
but i would also be the best yrs.
coz all my frens are there for me.
i am really thankful for everything!
thanks a bunch!
btw, haha. thanks Hiok Yeong for saying that u hate school too! we sama sama. lol.
If not for u guys, i may not be able to stand up ever again!
OPTIMISM: People who attempt the difficult often atain the impossible.
I will become much stronger after this. i believe.
so. cheer up Jolene! XD jiayou!
*i am really enjoying french. its so much fun! i dun believe i am saying this though.

I am half way watching the charity show. Its kinda touching to see so many ppl putting in great effort to help those less fortunate. its heart warming.
the world may be complicated. there may be bad ppl in this world. but compassionate ppl exist too!
haha. through this show, i realised how fortunate i am. life is really vulnerable. REALLY VULNERABLE. anything can happen to us at any point in time.
perhaps we should really treasure every second in our life.
some ppl commit suicide when they are unhappy. or feel great pressure. but have they thought abt the ppl around them? those who care for them?
theres this point in my life. i felt really tired. i wanted to give up.
didnt want to care abt anything. but after much thought, i decided that it would be best to get on with life coz its precious. not only to me. also to my parents!
well, so if we meet any difficulties in life, try to resolve the problem! don't give up(:
i came across this simple and sweet poem called "Don't Quit!"
lemme share wif u guys!

When things go wrong
as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging
seems all uphill.

When the funds are low
and the debts are high.
And you want to smile,
but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit,
By all means pray, but DON'T you QUIT.

Success is failure turned inside out,
God's hidden gift in the clouds of doubt.
You never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar.
So trust in God when you're hardest hit...

It's when things go wrong,
that you MUST NOT QUIT!

so everyone, no matter wat u face in life, resolve it and get on wif ur life!

here to blog(:
its 12.25am.
damn sleepy now.
but no choice cant sleep.
coz havent finish tuition hwk.
its so hard lah.
i lyk every question oso dunno how to do.
i am so dead.
my results have dropped drastically since i came to sec sch.
i dun lyk it.
sigh...
well everyone has to go through this, so i better look at the bright side.
juz now i talk to yoong kwei on msn.
ha. he went for an ironkid competition.
actually he got leg injury.
i call him dun go he still go.
lol. perhaps this is wat u call perseverance!
he is an athlete too.
he says that chances dun come easily.
yah true lah(:
see now in secondary sch.
i seem to be so tiny.
haha. i dun mean last time in pri sch i very big lah.
but at least a lot of ppl noe me.
teachers and even the principal.
now?
ok back to yoong kwei's competition.
he ran for 3km and swam for 400m.
his timing i think was 23-24 mins.
can't rmb alr.
its lyk damn super good lah.
if i go and run sure die.
haha...
anyway, i really admire him.
tenacity.
i lyk this word.
hmm...its time to find my goals and pursue my dreams! its never too early!
what i said is LAME.
btw, my mum is going to buuy me a new phone! probably nxt wk? i am so super damn happy! haha. finally!
kk. must go and do my stuff le. if not tmr sure die.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Hello i am here to blog again! Its recces now...
juz finished my prodesktop thingy.
lots of ppl in the com.lab now.
xue piao is sitting next to me now.
damn tiring.
juz had jogging.
haha, i jogged with yun yun and natalie.
hmm...feeling much better alr.
ok lah, actually oso not very ok...
are friendships and relationships really that fragile?
1A. my class.
its quite sad.
frankly speaking, i think our class has no class spirit at all...
thats kinda sad huh?
class spirit is important ba...
sigh...
hmm, everyone is getting restless.
like goldfish.
no aims and directions.
no motivation to move on.
hey people, we need to move on!
i am oso getting sick and tired of sch.
felt lyk giving up.
but no, i realised that in fact a lot of ppl are caring for me.
thanks for those who cheered me up!
ha, thanks Roysmond, Nicholas and Hiok Yeong!
<3>
Nicholas and the rest, this year we go holiday together k?
lol...
btw, today ms wee gave us chocolates! thanks!
urghh...i am getting fatter...

Thursday, July 12, 2007

nth much happened today.
still not very happy.
DEPRESSED.
right word to describe jolene now.
anyway, i ate my granola bar during lesson today. Mrs RW never notice. LOL. I damn naughty sia.
today, Si Jia went for her Practical Grade 5. Ha, wish her all the best! I told her that female examiner very terrible. and guess wat? she got a female examiner! LOL. ha, ltr she angry wif me...for cursing her.
Music...
to me is an escape.
its really nice.
listen to it.
feel the beat.
kkk...enuff of my crap.
today french class quite fun lah.
had french festival.
coz french national day is on 14 July.
so we celebrating it.
played games.
ha, time flies really fast.
nxt week e learning.
sian, can't get to see my "wonderful" classmates from RI nxt wk.
urghh...
btw, some ppl thinks that i am invisible.
i am the group leader.
and yet they make decisions without me.
and i am the last one to know everything.
i hate them.
anyway jolene, CHEER UP!
i must become myself again.
the bubbly me!
ok jiayou!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i am getting sick and tired of school.
school sucks.
i dread going to school everyday.
to me, every minute spent in school is a torture.
except during track.
i was very scared of going for training at one point of time.
but now, no more fear.
everyone in track treats me well.
i have frens lyk jue ying, jing yi, jie wei, tulasi, natalie, yun yun etc.
thanks a bunch!
1A.
i have a phobia of this class.
it totally freaks me out.
sigh...wateva, i cant be bothered.
i really hate secondary school.
dunno y, at first i sort of enjoyed it.
but now...
girls school...
damn scary place to me.
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME?
I OSO DUNNO.
i prefer daqiao.
i miss everyone there.
really.
french class is getting more fun.
i LOVE it.
all the laughter.
and the question marks.
yah, wat nicholas said its true.
must enjoy the struggle.

kays. must go and sleep le. getting late(:

Monday, July 9, 2007

wat is going on now? i am so blur...
y did he apologise to me?
sry my fren, i was too harsh wif my words...
sry...
hope we can still be frens...

now, this guy juz smsed me "Oops...sry to accuse u...sry ar..."
wat is going on?
i am on the verge of tears now...

I am burning wif rage now. A girl juz betrayed me. she is horrible. she destroyed my friendship wif another guy. wth. i hate her. how can she do it? i tot she was my good fren. summore that guy is sumone i have a crush on. now how? he will not tok to me forever! i am so sad yet so angry!
now i sms her. she never reply. yah she is pretty, much prettier than me. so? that guy ytd sms me "LOL oops...so sad..but dun use acid on her ar...dun be too jealous" I am so jealous now. that guy now having investiture rehearsal. i dun want to call him and disturb him.
i really hate it. y must she destroy wat i have done over the past few mths? i dunno wat she ssid to him and stuff.
i juz hope he will forgive me..
and i will never forgive that girl.
so sad she was my primary classmate and now things have come to such situation.
To the guy that i have crush on(:
really sry. i didnt mean to let the cat out of the bag. hope u forgive me. really sry.
i very scared u dun want to tok to me anymore le. very very scared.
Je taime! (a phrase that natalie juz taught me)

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

havent been blogging for a long time.
I am going crazy! >.<>
Why secondary sch still liddat one?
So childish...cliques and stuff. wah, driving me crazy.
theres this girl hu have been giving me trouble.
seriously, get a life.
u think i am the one hurting u? no, u are the one hu started it first.
you gave me a cold shoulder. treating me as though i was invisible.
i try to be nice. i tried to ignore everything and pretend that nth happened. i apologised for wat i did. i did wat i could jus to salvage our frenship.
yet wat did u and the others do? hurt me?
rmb, u started it all. u made me feel lyk a fish out of water.
and the worst thing is dat everyone thinks that u are so super damn kind.
u are putting on a fake front and i can tell u dat it is DISGUSTING.
you are really terrible.
i try to be nice and u are climbin on my head. wth.
I REALLY CANT STAND U. I apologised for the sake of my good frens. cz i dun want to lose them. not you.